that don't warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed !
happens
when
you
die ?
the
notion
of
ceasing
ceases
the notion..... ( the notion of ceasing ceases )
the recursion collapses
the recursion of ( the recursion collapses ) collapses
ever
visualised
an
ostrich
being
sucked
up
its
arse ?
: o )
there
is
is
there
anything
which
has
has
never
wikipedia
is
a
maybe
it's
no
reply
just
run
away
you
see
what
they
are
made
of
don't
you ?
what
does
it
matter
wether
man
survives
or
anything
survives ?
editors
are
toads
an
article
be
informative
where
true
not
easy
to
see
it
should
have
a
the
there's
some
you
some
way
or
ways
for
it
to
be
satisfactory
unless
you
have
end
up
i
think
the
thing
about
wikipedia
is
it
is
if
you
go
too
far
into
end
up
in
if
you
don't
go
deeply
enough
you
end
up
with
some
after
of
nowhere
i
think
to
with
was
more
successful
it
might
be
for
the
first
time
in
my
life
i
have
noticed
a
thickening
around
my
waist
and
my
underpants
fit
tighter
aging
is
a
thing
is
the
enshrinement
of
mediocracy !
all
life
is
volunteer
effort
the
biggest
ones
are
sex
and
raising
children
stalin
was
a murderous
arsehole
does
any
more
need
to
be
said ?
sleep
when
needed
is
a
consensus
of
one
if you wish your servants to be without fault you are a fool
my reply
if you wish your servants to be without fault then they are your master
Best
advice
for
dealing
with
people
wear
them
out
or
the
threat
thereof !
if
you
can't
enforce
that
then
you
should
take
note
that
you
are
in
an
unequal
power
relationship
and
in
the
inferior
position
some
people
push
the
boundaries
others'
live
within
them
the
female
body
to
renew
the moron
art
and
good
writing
as
because
they
are
when
you
look
at
the
missionaries
of
charity
and
what
they
do
mother
teresa
was
off
her
scone !
are
they
hurting
you
or
are
they
benefiting
you
what
can
appear
to
be
hurt
is
not
hurt
at
all
but
benefiting
you
wikipedia
is
being
killed
by
arrogant
young
men
who
contribute
zero
useful
info
to
articles
and
enforce
their
own
various
forms
of
political
correctness
a
say
to
do
this
and
that
a
will
say
you
think
you
are
of
course
several
answers
to
this
some
of
which
are
not
favourable
to
the
point
of
life
is
not
that
friendly
to
over -
specialization
it's
not
too
friendly
to
being
spread
too
thin
either
all
is
a
form
of
against you
to
for
the
what
is
the
value
of
what
you
are
doing?
it's
a bit
of
a
shock
to
realise
that
the
value
is
the
wearing
out
of
you
and
that
what's
done
has
no
value
in
itself
a
not
a
its
the
way
it
attempts
deconstruction
of
the
self
is
good
of
course
asking
what
is
true
in
likely
to
bring
the
whole
place
to
a
any
parliament
or
legislature
for
that
what
happened
with
springwater
and
zen
is
quite
interesting
from
about 1990
on
there
was no
new
generation
with
any
compedence
they
got
gutted
by
katie
and
gangaji
i
know
there
is
no
compedence
because
both
springwater
and
zen
chased
me
out
simple
facts
speak
a
lot
if
we
look
at
them
byron katie
of
which is what she calls
infinity
there's
a
side
that
makes
you
laugh
and
a
side
that
makes
you
cry
cosmic
joke
reclining
buddha
and
crucified
buddha !
re
the
two
previous
homilies
they
are
just
saying
that
women
may
be
hormonally
dependent
on
oxytocin
to
keep
their
brains
together
for
which
there
is
research !
it
gives
simple
biological
drivers
for
what
is
a
very
fraught
area
i
was
in
part
thinking
of
a
in
iran
who
had
been
lashed 99
times
for
infidelity
and
only
avoided
being
stoned
to
death
by
an
international
outcry
if
a
woman
is
not
getting
enough
sex
a
fragmenting
brain
is
a
very
strong
driver
to
i
wonder
if
women
need
sex
and
children
to
stop
them
going
all
that
oxytocin !
this
would
explain
the
nuttiness
and
religio - eroticism
of
my
view
is
men
get
captured
and
not
the
other
way
around
well
it
occurs
the
other
way
around
but
it's
all
the
sheep
in
their
pens
yes
you
the
world !
truth
leaves
a
bloody
and
bruised
corpse
your
own
all
meditation
seems
to
do
is
make
everyone
utterly
nothing
against
a
nice
walk though
: o )
my
tinnitus
is
always
in
superb
3D
sound
: o )
benignness
is
just
a
mood
glossing
over
the
are
parmenides
heraclitus
schopenhauer
heidegger
and
what's
left
is
unfortunately
adults
can
lose
what
children
education
when
it
comes
to
god
or
infinity
whatever
you
want
to
call
it
groups
are
always
from
the
dry
science
point
of
view
astrology
is
ridiculous
but
it
has
always
been
around
and
always
will
be
around
so
there
must
be
something
to
it
astrology
is
why ?
one
is
coming
to
the
end
of
something
what
makes
true
art ?
attention
to
detail
way
beyond
any
commercial
rationality
enforced
a
what
is
the
paradigm ?
britney
spears !
the
saddest
thing
about
franz
kafka
is
the
way
his
were
gassed
ottla
was
in
charge of
a
group of
children
and was gassed with the children
on
october
the
7th
1943
at Auschwitz
and
ellie
and
vallie
likely
gassed in lorries
at
Chelmno
in
september
1942
may
god
remember
them
when
damage
has
been
done
recovery
is
to
the
extent
possible
is
a
question
of
time
and
working
a
few
things
out
in fact he never entered the sea so to speak
it was like a choice i think otherwise he would have become a mystic
or poet
issac newton had the bad luck to do some alchemy experiments with mercury and this knobbled him intellectually for the rest of his life, he became schizophrenic actually writing endless commentaries on the book of revelations
had
that
not
happened whoknows
there
were
indications he was onto the theory of relativity by the
end
of
his
life
most trauma that
occurs
there's
usually
a
basis
for
it
lower
back
pain
you
wake
up
one
day
with
a
disability
its
a bit
of
a mental
adjustment !
i
think
most
people
cope
with
endlessness
by
restriction
but
it
needs
to
be
coped
with
by
exhaustion
of
possibilities
since
there
is
no
exhaustion
of
possibility
how
is
it
to
be
coped
with ?
happiness
is
some
golden
mean
between
the
two
but
it's
not
the
way
of
truth
truth
dies
a
burnt
and
worn
out
corpse
not
until
something
goes
wrong
for
yourself
can
you
be
sympathetic
to
it
happening
to
others
mahler's well known work of course
i
notice
with
women
is
that
them
what
is
the
reality ?
i
think
the
reality
is
health !
if
you
don't
have
health
you
don't
have
a
lot
sometimes
you
have
to
undo
stuff
because
it
has
a
weight
of
future
involvement
that
you
don't
want
the
thing
about
drugs
is
you
have
to ask
yourself
is
do
they
do
any
permanent
damage
alcohol
does ,
if
you
can
have
flash
backs
years
later
with
lsd,
then
lsd does
ecstasy
does
speed
does
the
brain
is
intrinsically
unstable
and
quite
susceptible
to
its
operation
being
graunched
women
have
to
be
enamoured
of
men
they
are
breeding
machines
and
half
of
what
they
are
breeding
is
what
they
are
enamoured with
i
have
closed
down
my
editing
of
the
toni packer
entry
on
wikipedia
i
think
i
have
moved
into
myself
at
last
the
damage
of
cults
religions
is
the
imposition
of
someone
else's
brain
on
your
own
i
think
i'm
trying
to
contain
life
by
exhausting
all
the
possibilities
but
i
can
see
they
can
and
can't
be
exhausted
life
is
the
truth
is
literature
is
far
more
complex
than
being
straight
fiction
or
non -
fiction
writing
is
an
important
part
of
understanding
crafting
the process
of
thought
through
poetry
and
homilies
a
cult
is
any
group
with
excessive
censorship
comes
into
that
or
she
wouldn't
have
all
that
psychotic
tibetan
garabge
it's
not
something
you
can
express
saying
god
exists
or
not
a
genuine
about
the
only
one !
still ,
a
nutcase !
the
way
i
solve
problems
is
not
the
way
most
people
do
i
go
wrong
then
i
go
very
wrong
ah !
thats
what
right
looks
like !
basically
fairly
extreme
but
hopefully
not
too
crippling
error
crafts
out
a
very
good
shape
of
what
right
looks
like
16
is
too
old
to
have
the
basic
enlightenment
experience
firstly
it
needs
to
occur
in
the
womb
then
it
needs
to
occur
at
about
six or seven
and
then it
may
re - occur
at
31
fools
are
born
every
day
which
we
always
show
ourselves
to
be
: o )
my
opinion
is
that
groups
don't
understand
god
they
are
always
wrong
it's
only
the
individual
that
understands
GOD !
what
was
i
going
to
say ?
don't
waste
your
time
listening
to
me
i
don't
have
a
consistent
message
there
is
no
consistent
message
i'm
not
even
sure
there's
a
message
except
don't
waste
your
time
reading
this !
i
think
i
have
been
unfair
to
heraclitus !
heraclitus
has
the
usual
problem
of
philosophers
too
meditation
can
rewire
the
brain
a
form
of
solitude
and
i
don't
think
most
people
can
handle
it
solitude
is
a
bizarre
space
people
do
not
fair
:~~~ o (
is
there
a
context
in
which
it
can
be
asked
is
there
fairness
or
not ?
no
: o )
there
can
be
a
price
for
writing
poetry
a
terrible
price
displacement
of
attention
from
finances
health
and
eating
properly
there
is
a
deepest
truth ?
what
a
phony !
swiss
cheese
for
brains !
makes
sense
except
getting
older
i
don't
quite
know
what
this
is
of
a
a mad
man ?
a
dog
has
a
displacing
effect
i
think
sanity
is
not
to
make
general
comments
but
talk
specifics
one
hopes
that
amidst
all
the
rubbish
one
has
written
one
or
two
interesting
things
the
greeks
can
be
just
as
wrong
minded
as
everybody
else
you
live
a
nice
life
and
then
you
die
if
only
it
happened
that
way
the
whole
unfortunate
truth
is
there
is
no
audience
i
don't
understand
people
well
enough
to
write
what
would
attract
them
: o )
have
i
lost
my
resilience ?
so
many
wrong
turnings
taken
in
my
life
: o (
you
can
claim
this
and
that
but
what
actually
is
it ?
dame
moura
i
wouldn't
say
i
get
it
wrong
it's
more
like
i
change
my
opinion
: o )
the
male
love
you
for
your
utility
to
me !
hardly
endearing !
but
women
have
to
live
with
it !
be
a
philosopher
it's
as
simple
as
born
human
the
problem
is
most
of
them
are
born
human
and
it
drug
addicts
are
too
disconnected
from
their
lives
to
their
ability
to
what
is
the
nazi
party
the
communist
party
had
their
origins
in
volunteer
committees
so
much
evil
from
such
innocuous
beginnings !
all
religion
is
the
same
it's
just
a
question
of
where
they
plagarize
from !
the
logos
i
don't
find
myself
fresh
but
other
people
are
fresh
if
unless
you
have
children
i
think
there
are
some
maturities
that
will
always
escape
you
similarly
there
are
some
maturities
and
fatigues
of
life
that
are
better
seen
childless
i
must
be
strange
just
sitting
down
and
writing
mystical
garbage
why
i
don't
know
what
does
it
mean
to
find
your
identity ?
is
infinity
my
identity ?
we
have
been
and
are
separated
basically
people
live
in
an
attention
deficit
state
there
is
no
help
for
it
and
all
the
ills
of
the
world
arise
from
it
the
original
subtle
than
the
re-makes
in fact he was anti-nazi and his books were burned by the nazis, tho he seems to have accommodated the regime by moving to writing escapist literature while the nazis were in power
its just sort of interesting that that story is written on a background of ww1 and 2, the depression and the holocast
the way i think of menopause is women lose their basic growth hormone which is estrogen
estriol affects the whole body but is like only part of the estridiol molcule
missing
bits
the sooner a woman starts estridiol after or during menopause the lower her lifetime cancer risk
what they have found is its the 60+ who start estrodiol who have the high cancer risk
if they have never used it before
there's some good epidemiological research around now
are
not
specialised
enough
to
be
effective
and
what will
happen
is
some
gp's
will
specialise
in
certain things
like the wiley
protocol
or
defacto
skin
specialists
this
is
a
good
move
for
the
general
public
and
is
happening
working
inside
all
day
going
outside
for
a
moment
an
astounding
thin
crescent
moon
earthshine
and
evening
star !
mark
twain
on
am
quite
happy
rambling
into
the
ether !
aging
is
the
process
of
talk
is
just
talk
you
can
talk
while
disengaging
your
life
which
is
why
boehm's
dialogues
don't
work
and
the
cults
flourish
and
the
net
message
and
chat
scene
meanders
on
if
the
principles
of
physics
interfere
so
much
with
each
other
the
cause
must
be
extreme
compaction
at
some
point
why
would
you
want
to
overcome
usual
seeking
novelty
to
justify
itself
compared
to
their
inability
to
get
to
grips
with
what
is
proven
i
think
my
capacity
for
doing
it
hard
voluntarily
is
there's
no
point
in
being
stretched
beyond
your
existing
strategies
but
if
you
don't
get
stretched
there's
no
possibility
of
change
maybe
you
are
perfect
as
you
are
lol
if
you
are
female
between
the
ears
every
male
of
your
aquaintance
has
been
drawn
and
quartered
already
sometimes
you
just
have
to
plough
on
and
keep
on
ploughing
on
and
keep
on
ploughing
on
and
keep
on
ploughing
on
i'm
bending
over backwards
do
others
bend
so ?
no
they
go
forwards
to
kill
though
when
they
can
i
suppose
life
bends
us
over
backwards
anyway
to
not
like
real
estate
for
every
hour
you
put
in
how
much
product
do
you
sell ?
writing
like
this
each
word
is
like
a
piano
key
when
you
reach
the
end
go
onto
something
else
no
point
in
dwelling
there
its
vapour
an
illusion
thats
the
problem
with
sitting
/waiting
the
end
of
time
nowhere
an
illusion
of
comfort
that
in
reality
is
not
there
retention
of
sperm
gets
transmuted
into
a
different
energy
when
you
look
at
what
goes
on
with
those
who
claim
to
be
or
explicit
you
have
to
say
that
basically
its
a
fiction
it's
quite
conceivable
that
with
a
few
genetic
changes
we
could
live
three
hundred
years
but
that's
not
what
gives
your
maximium
genetic
imprint
to
the
species
such
longevity
is
too
rigid
the
species
needs
more
change
diversity
and
flexibility
what's
written
just
below
is
get
the
sense
of
it
you
can't
get
the
sense
of
it
language
usually
falls
short
of
its
ability
to
represent
what
you
are
trying
to
say
the
world
a
hundred
million
arseholes
out
to
get
me
: o )
a
fiction,
bit
like
imo
toni
packer
is
a
bit
of
an
the
the
that
she
is
part
of
the
spiritual
circuit !
she
may
have
fallen
victim
to
partly
believing
this
perhaps
not
but
those
around
her
yes
and
no
i
think
you
need
to
be
entirely
clear
of
any
such
parental
paradigms
are
more
benign
especially
if
you
are
the
offspring
the
breeding
has
been
done
you
are
the
bred !
all
people
are
interested
in
is
breeding
even
if
they
are
not
interested
in
breeding
they
are
too
highly
associated
with
behaviors
associated
with
breeding
don't
be
afraid
to
hurt
people
unless
they
can
hurt
you
in
return
usually
they
can
i
think
life's
just
one
long
lesson
not
to
care
everything is just as weird as can be
the beatles dying
moonlight flying
everything is just as weird as can be
you can't defeat the reproductive
drive
you
can
simulate
but
in the end
because the why of what they do is reproduction
then
the
guru and
religous
frauds
show
their
true
interests
i
am
the
walls
of
your
limited
ideas
of
things
you
finish
everything
and
at
the
end
there's
a
big
point ?
there
wasn't
any
when
i
die
they
will
not
be
able
to
say
an
illusion
of
there
being
even
a
shred
of
hope
depression
is
not
a
its
an
engulfing
MAW
so
smart !
good
does
it
do
him ?
he
reads
up
on
all
the
idiots !
takes
the
cake
andrew
cohen
in
a
class
of
his
how
people
can
fall
for
this
is
beyond
me
whats
wrong
with
ken
wilber ?
no
graft
sexual
shenanigans
all
the
guru
usual
just
dumb
i
am
afraid
ken
wilber
big
mind
it
scrambles
ones
brain
to
even
start
thinking
of
this
shit !
god
this
stuff
is
wilber
merzel
nonentities
out
of
their
depth
i
don't
feel
photos
capture
the
full
visual
dynamic
very
well
which
is
in
fact
moving !
evolution
supercharges
the
female
with
estrogen
women
are
professional
limpets
dying
if
you
are
mentally
clear
is
a
most
remarkable
process
net
searching
it
pays
to
follow
things
through
threads
of
centrality
that
appear
to
be
peripheral !
i
think
when
you
are
dealing
with
women
you
are
dealing
with
female
in
the
abstract
and
don't
be
surprised
at
the
way
it
treats
you
autism
and
schizophrenia
its
almost
like
schizophrenics
are
the
ones
who
don't
survive
the
advantage
of
doing
one's
own
editing
is
increased
exposure
to
what
one
wrote
writing
properly
understood
is
for
our
own
edification
and
not
the
edification
of
others
what
is
abrasion ?
it
wears
away
the
surface
so
that
what's
underneath
is
exposed
am
i
a
real
person
am
i
a
fantasy
what
am
i
in
reality ?
werner
this
notion
of
personal
deconstruction
is
too
decoherent
he's jewish and much more logical than any other guru i have seen
but he still gets it quite wrong
guess he never left his car saleman roots
its the usual looking for a quick fix, build a new more effective personality with est
usual result is just a mess
and
everything
has
ended
such
an
ordinary
event
a
man
arrested
imprisoned
sent
to
the gulag
and
died
in
a
siberian
transit
camp
osip
mandelstham
the
trouble
with
the
media
is
generally
they
are
there
to
make
money
out
of
you
and
that
costs
you
i
think
people
in
general
are
great
users
am
i
an
exception ?
new
zealanders
are
a lot
straighter
than
americans !
a
new
zealander
says
something
and
its
reasonably
true
an
american
says
something
and
it
can
be
anything
the
other
side
of
the
globe
actually
doesn't
fall
far
from
the
tree
sometimes
it
can
yes
and
no
irish
and
lebanese
is
a
pretty
wrong
minded
combination
i
think
karam
is
much
more
interesting
than
Bain
the
question
is
since
Bain
is
really
guilty
how
could
karam
devote
so
much
of
his
life
to
so
big
an
error .
i
guess
the
answer
is
plenty
have
before
this
and
no
doubt
plenty
will
in
future !
maybe
he
just
made
a
mistake
and
felt
obliged
to
persist
with
it
i
am
not
afraid
of
death
i
came
from
nothing
and
go
to
nothing
if
you
have
a
successful
life
i
don't
think
you
can
reach
the
sort
of
understanding
these
homilies
and
poems
are
about
broken
bent
and
trampled
on
is
about
the
story
i'd
say
the
brain
can
know
something
but
your
own
reasoning
can't
approach
it
or
is
contrary
life
here
on
earth
is
not
real
it
is
an
image